MY ANXIETY A DAILY BLOG: DOCTORS VISIT

Hello!

Ok so if you've been following my vlog which you can see here - https://youtu.be/UMzQ4mYmYPA you know that I had to go to the doctor today to follow up on some blood work. They called me yesterday and told me my sugar was a little high which I could have guessed and will refrain from eating ice cream at 1am for a while, maybe. And that my white blood cell count was also a little high.  So of course freaked out a bit but through sheer will and brute force got through the night and all of today and went to the doctors office for a follow up. I have been fighting off some kind of illness. They originally thought it was allergies and I thought it was an infection of some kind so somewhere in the middle is the reason for my WBC count to be high and there's no reason for me to freak out. I really was scared and usually thus is what happens to me over anything and almost everything. Anxiety has made me a hypochondriac.  Or maybe I always was a hypochondriac and that gave me anxiety.  This seems to be the running theme for me. What causes what? Does the illness give me anxiety or dies anxiety make me ill? It's truly hard to tell.

Ok so I was going to write something longer but it's late and I've decided to wrap up here with my plan. Tomorrow is another day.

MY PLAN:

1. I have been repeating the mantra: "THROUGH SHEER WILL AND BRUTE FORCE" followed by whatever it is I have to do and it is helping for whatever reason so I'm going to continue doing that until it stops working. 

2. I truly believe that whatever kind of thoughts you place in your head is the state you'll be in and the reality and future you'll have. It's as cliche as some meme but I belive it's true. I am going to put forth my greatest effort to control the thoughts I put in my head. I know anxiety will also be filling me with the same old nonsense but I will focus my energy on what I want to think. I think and hope this will work.

3. I am going to follow a strict(er) regiment.  Going to bed early, waking up early,  meditation and yoga at least once a day and not do what I did tonight despite visiting the doctor which is stay up til 2am and eat what I assume was like 4 servings of ice cream. It was 1 serving for me but definitely not A serving of ice cream. Yeah, that.

Ok.  Tomorrow is another day to try again. Thank you for reading, good luck to you and goodnight/morning!

Lou