Hello!
Ok, so today was a great day. Anxiety is still here. Panic is still here. Obsessive overthinking and worry is also still here BUT it was still a great day. I have done a good job keeping my mind occupied on the things that I want it to be occupied on. Plain and simple.
THROUGH SHEER WILL AND BRUTE FORCE!
I recorded my vlog this morning and you can find it here - https://youtu.be/vQdVRebRAnE
And used the old and simple yet quite affective rule of mind over matter, mind over EVERYTHING!
It's not easy and as I stated above all of my issues remain. I have just not allowed myself to indulge them or focus on them nearly as much as normal, not even as much as yesterday. I know that I have to continue to so this tomorrow and for the indefinite foreseeable future most likely but it's a small price to pay considering my other option is fear soaked nightmarish anxiety and panic.
I know that today is just day 1. I know that and I know that I sound like someone who quit cigarettes on their day one but I also know how important this is and how CAPABLE I am to do this. Today was far from perfect but it was a great start. My body is in a constant state of twitches, aches and bumps and tugs and vibrations and little eruptions of pain so the road is long but the journey of a thousand miles begins with one step. I believe this and will continue on this path for as long as I can as best I can.
Ok MY PLAN:
1. TO CONTINUE WITH MY ROUTINE BEGINNING WITH A GOOD NIGHT SLEEP TONIGHT TO ALMOST ENSURE TOMORROW WILL BE BETTER THAN TODAY.
2. MY MANTRA - THROUGH SHEER WILL AND BRUTE FORCE I WILL CONQUER MY MIND AND BODY.
3. BREATH. MEDITATE. LAUGH AND REPEAT.
Thank you for reading and I hope this wasn't too cliche and in fact helped you as well.
Goodnight!
Lou
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